Sat in a garden

waiting to handover 

a pertinent state of gladness 

content and general lament, 

as if shifting sands fall just as free 

as what grief parallel bittersweet divides neither zero 

nor me for I am no longer youth meant to retaliate and resist 

nor yet old enough to regret and decay, poison to the dance floor. 

to regress into a shell of name, shame and tell 

is not a beautiful lie nor prison I shall walk into, 

willingly or freely 

a shared cigarette lingers on my clothes 

clinging dearly at the back of my throat 

what makes the heart swell and beat 

does it hurt better, do you want to hurt me better? 

a smoking gun is a signal that a case is soon to be 

closed just as the body has gone numb, blue and cold. 

 

to mediate is a mistake, making it out 

break away and keep it 

now, a name 

a burning sensation as a ghastly embrace 

moves through and past, 

in the walls you raised, turned upside down 

I wish, I miss the joy of turning back to match 

a gaze, a sensation, none hard(ship)  

always belong(ing) in the waves 

of every (single) goodbye. 

 

where I'm from, not by choice (mind!) 

April's fool coincides with the workers' rights day, 

for even the jester carves at granite, carves his craft and 

ditches the lifeline: to exhale (deeply)  

Banking in the length 

Capsized from corner to corner 

From spite to throwbacks 

Keeping afloat, hoping to say 

Just enough. 

A lovely dream, perceived 

Underground, in a bunker 

Having walked through the doors (not a barricade) 

Thoughts, mere whispers, just to lament what came to be 

Heads baked in sand, caked in mud, played for a fool 

It goes to sleep angry, stays terrified of a pole 

Spilled guts, confirmed to keep in touch  

Dial, break, embrace, taste 

In this charade the tyranny stains satisfaction 

Granite shatters in vain once age calls it quits 

I just hope it is not I dangling atop of a wall 

Awaiting to be swallow whole, deeply dissatisfied... 

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Sister got off the programme# 

Short of a revolution that ran its course 

Let us face the reveal of what was 

Unseen, in existential abandon 

To refuse the system and what’s in between 

Rule of tremor, if it can be loved (and filled) 

Then he can be emptied (pour one for her) 

A dagger misses the vitals and holds them 

In place, so-so oh so carefully charming you to sleep 

Invoking futile resistance for it burns inside-out yeah 

Taste of copper and desire invade the senses and mark 

My words it triggers dreams locked away, for we all got them 

Just as right as the convocation to nurture and circle You 

As your whole world implodes, we stand, then sit finally clap and leave 

I cannot wait to tell you:” I told you so.” For it burns and hurts, 

And good things are meant to be shared.