tonight we grieve like adolescents after the first love

since we last spoke,

O'nd behold herald of stores foretold

for I bled, I sidelined sickness and despair

professional intervention flashed between the cranium

touching the lingering questions carefully and suddenly

we saw what we could not see in a simplificy that should not be

levitate bredren, acquaintance and friend alike

bystanders and witnesses in the jorney we do not share friend

for crossroads may be linked but they forbid me from joining you,

it seems the strings of fate twist in bounds I struggle to forgive the narrow

corridors that do not allow for the memories weighting on my thin frame

upon the shoulders lessons we promised to recount once sat, down, together, again:

so explain me father so I may step unto thy gates,

why do you make us mortal men liars. 

in despair we commit to the letdown,

chilled to the bone, woe is me my gospel.

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am I jaded or gastlighted into being on the wrong

a pact that I ignored, contrary to the resolve we lay down in the snow

lost of hearing, lost of feeling

my availability was crushed by the driving force that goes around

stealing security, devouring control

the course of course hidden only in song was foretold,

a lamb amongst the sinners, a parasite granted

but I am not the only one and that brings confort to the sweat beads on the run

trespassers on my lawn, tomb raiders: escavading my concept of desolation

unearthing what I could not conceal further, rebury it deeper you thief,

feral animals need not for crime, pause or curse to bite back at prey

forever slipped away the moment we opened the door

do away with the final masquerade we need not for riddles,

words conjure powers that the senses beacon at, yearning for stars

those mighty pillars of hope out of reach, a timely fashion

to reach out towards, for it?

clutching poison like its a cure

sister in time the screams aflame may echo alright

exchange places, tear down this walls

the closet unbolts, the terror unleashed.

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I seek not to break or form new, better habits

in this decade as it unfolds it intrigues me less

it taunts me in boredom the tones of cheaper trills

as they curve, they bend as if giving up in friction

a atypical tyranny activity of engraving a visual place between the ears

taking you for a spin until you throw up, sick and dazed

you wake up to chains around your neck, spare us the drama,

I suggest you take stock of the voices in your head before you end up under dirt

for this years and possibly following ones in kind I resolve to spare my knees

and abdicate least my prayers are the drip keeping me on my feet

in the peripheries of my frame I am bursting with hate

gee this infestation won't come back to destroy me

my current fear is what becomes of my core as my nails are polished to the frontier, bloody

can we hold back before we sever the constant of normality

what to do, what to take:

a percentage of

a

bad

thing.