I'll imagine that was not what I wanted to hear.

That word rang sleptalking
Peaked my falling insecurities
Escaped out of my waking hour
Locked my airways, no longer sound
Breath sounded less safe, the great escape
It meant 'nothing' to me.

And on the third bell I wake up
Does not add up towards a breakup
Maybe on the other side of the hemisphere
The right time frame where I should be
Overclocking what I want to see
Be owned by televised scenarios
Blue stained, purple taint in my eye routine
Things were better in America
Dreams felt smoother over crack-cocaine
Romancing the charade of dancing in the streets
Immersed heavy rain eyeing a dream
Ticklish blur ticks rub off wrong.

One I apply over dreafully bummed eyes
Soggy, it's complicated, over remembrance
I broke yet another promise, got edged under
shattered along the tracks, I would make up
Guess it was not just a phase, now I see silhouettes
Before I saw faces, right where I wish I could be
Memories stringed tight anyway.
I could had stayed in touch
I chose to disappear..

I lack clarity, the sunshine doesn't provide
Do I miss them or is it still all about me?
Do I feel that much better now?

It does take effort to drown oneself
On the aftermath of an accident
Overthinking instinct, gone either way
Right back to the apathy.

Oded over a compass of wine and cheap hookers.

At pointblank the pores ooze of bleach
Seedy coke bought over sordid abstain
Do not get confused, a blue lacy is a dog
I merely get labeled a whimp, sorted.
Shredded instruments too can recover
That resemblance of borrowed time.

Nocturnal gails lyric makeshift pull
I make by-a-bye a collected tune
Laughable that my dollface is the product
of a trapped nerve, can't feel my face
Solid gold for the sting, was it worth
the cost timid, obscure so and so foretold.

I ain't no saint and a half-bad listener
To boot, the girl sat at the limbo steps
a dark whisperer to crystal balls
Oded over a compass of wine and cheap hookers
Pray tell girl how can that be a curse?

Nutty pretenses, should'a said no
A manequim strapless, devout
I apreciated the silence
and little else.

find's a new keeper lodged at your disposal
swift, immenent and fully deserved
a bullet sits at our nest, lukewarm satisfaction

I called shotgun.

The grandeur of a finale sits at bay
The mine lost the trust of the crowd
and popped the ballon, check it.
No laughter, no clamour, out of sink
Elemental pop, sounds good.
A wave of arms, the quiet dawn
Aftermath of abandon, a ghost that left
Once a vampire stroke by moonlight
bravely met the sun's reflection and burned
over the grace of science, broken tempo
Stopwatch held heart, more drugs to fuel
The rage, the measures to which no avail
Can be forgiven.

Shame walks the twilight

Heavy are thy aspirations
Turtled upon thy chest,
bottlenecked stroke tempo
Little girl haven't you realized?
The throne has no heir
Gods hipnotized by snails
No.. sooner, eclipsed by alergies
so to speak, her broken wings
my hidden body, tundra rippled.

This sudden vacancy, an avalance
Even the dead generate goose bump
Savage awoken hour, curse it all
Enervating itchy state, my ears lie
Selfishly transport me to passages
foraged home, ravaged memory foretold
Ancestors, kin of my flesh guide me
Up thy babel tower, should I make it
Undermine ascending scales under her feet
Screw the kneecaps and incapacitate
Melt away my suffering,
Traded my pain with my captive
Best desigrated glanced over a graveyard taunts

There's no denying healing takes pause
On the parade we held over shovel claps
The crown transmuted the golden halo
Wizard I still resent thy darkest secrets
Tomes of vile conduct, a knock on my door

Twice fell the blade that inseminates
Shame walks the twilight, disapproving
All knowing, queen forever and a day

I smirk not for an apocalipse dawns
No remorse for the empty glas, so-so
Pour me one for the long road home
Prayer only finds me on my sleep
When it is cold and my hands
Find another.

From breastfed to absinthe.

There goes the recess, an abyss
Devoid of flavour, my innibition
Nothing left, broken links
B-rated, repel my last breath
That tipped off veil kept me going
No upkeep on the extinguisher
Neglect provoked this burn out, shit.

New divider firmly lodged on drugs
Lotta' buff up self-prescripted preaching
no role model to teach them how to fraternize
My lighter ain't sized for purpose
Ain't got a choice, fuck it all up
You will find my front door upside down


Now now ragdoll it ain't a belief 
I mispoke, bent sore throat set aside
Dandelion serum to loosen your nerves
The ruler treatment brings us both to tears
Some birdo chants qualms, repeat the slander
Let us watch paint dry, "son never apologize"
Some day I will learn to speak my mind.

My words may be twisted, hell sent me
Read diagonally to match up sham slang
My irrittation as of late is that I can't complain
Pour me hope, feels awful just to sit down
Crack the bottle that kept me quiet
Hold me heartbeat, lead me home


Packed bags buried underneath junk
My skin crawls, neck cranks up bed sores
Might be time to colapse this tent
Retribution my penance, karma the looming
duty maimed, this holes on my hands
A conduit to a darker place, met with shiny
Little pretty things, the same amber pearls
Mine, identical in custom and fare rate
 
I wonder how come
The phone burns at touch
The letter disintegrates
The email cracks the screen
Under my knuckles, under my nails
Now now, those times are past me
I just ought to confess if I were
under durress, you, would not
see, me, plead.
Lure me a mistake
tangled vocal cords
Queue up and wait your turn.

A silver claw encarcerated in my lungs.

ol' stain trusthworthy to shut it up myself
somehow concuring yearning defies
conundrums, boy enamoured by fantasy
to pursue my lips as I masterfully interlock
the hang execution rope through use of your hair
resources abundant so as to pester
in decay a feast to celebrate the new age
the Eve of changes of heart, classic.

A silver claw encarcerated in my lungs.
I can feel it dance when I speak
it torments to no lavish end when I eat
From the spoils I have been gifted,
I hate it the most when I sit alone

and what of this demand for accessibility
How come telltales farscretch commodities?
while we try to figure it out culture colapses

Poise tokens of scarce embellishment
pierce my skin, dangle in vain my shinies
Let me rotate thy promise upon my lip
Twice folded and make it painful
rest assured the blood fuels a purpose
The good boy wears warpaint
packed bag, navigates the empty twilight
It too had a name missed in translation
a petty mistake not meant for me.

There is no nobler catastrophe
than the distant cornered prey
Fallen, ten thousand feet under
Alive and overdue, granted a slow death
Father I wished for many things
Not one came to be, sinful in weight
Greed, pride, lust, envy, gluttony, wrath and sloth
All is well when the furies sunder my ribcage
Do not defy me child, do scream my name
as I brand flesh and untie the ligaments of your soul
So fleeting pledges of due honor
Love harbor, ample bay divide
Beckon the others ahead
Hoy it is me.

D a J C

Gash of crimson velvet
Uncomsumated debt
He muses atop vertical bounds
and bruises are rewards
Garden of busy tides
To fulfil a triple dock outing
Roll up a footstorm of personnel
Adquire mastery of hunger upon
I shan't feint I do wish for adoration
Peer through should you miss it

Gates are by definition flawed
Intrusion of privacy, fact
and death to those compelled
Should they so desire to object,

Delirious calls drowned under
my feet, the dirt shares my jaded appetite
_____________________________

A mane cascates dancing ever so slow
fleeting silk, defying gravity these locks
I confess I might be losing it, I signed up
for my own downfall, paramount to sing along
Sugar on the tip of my nose gives the word away

The backbone is shaped by peril
The soul intoxicated by cowardness
slipped down by babel tower
Riviera thy jewels appease them
they, the comical insane whose saliva
evaporates god tainted affront

For now the payment remains unchecked
for now I am swore to never come out
of my special place, aflicted by paranoia
Should earn prove heavy in steps
an imminent assault, that's only fair.
_________________________________

May your name escape my throat in my final day.

It was a hot summer day
Just like all those now and before
Anyway, you meant to run away
Get riddin' the moment, hurray
I do taste relieve when I wake up
Foul display of apathy, can't escape
To think I could not say it
Admit what I felt was new
Baby I would exchange
The sum of my travels
They did not seem to fortify
My mental, these fears resist
being washed away, cannot board
Dreams, art galleries haunted
By placeholders disfigured
By misunderstandings and blurs
Lay waste to reality
Paint the Moon red and destroy the Sun
Match my equals in battle and so far
Little else compares to your breath
Lingering on my neck as the drums
Skip my heartbeats, fasten by trance
Aching sore dry eyes serenate
Barren wastelands forgo innibit passion
Fastforward a broken state, that boat?
A ship that departed towards nowhere
Might as well keep walking
I breath easy only if I keep talking
Scared I forget to stand tall
Taxing true, as a hurricane at sea
And break yet another promise
I never intent to keep so close
though it seems only some golden words
worthwhile to trade for hope and a smile
Fortune was not what I was hearing
Then again rain makes for a fit companion
when everyone else moves on
so far from home, where is this place
God I forget to make up
a new condoned outbreak
Infect your ears with symphony
Baby it is not a zombie morphic state
I just gotta keep on sleepwalking
and perhaps you won't look so distant
Asia, America, Africa? Where do I need to be..
May your name escape my throat in my final day.